Heartsong

If all i had to give you was my eyes...

they would pour into you like water, seeking your soul

making you whole

If all i had to give you were my lips...

they would kiss you deeply, tenderly, softly, gently

allowing your breath to enter me, like a summers breeze

a tender moment seized


If all i had to give you was my voice...

I would sing you a song, a serious beat, a staccato edge, a soprano's treat

swinging to the words of life, the heartbeat of love

the beautiful vision of a flying dove


If all i had to give you were my words...

I would write a poem for you, a story of two

a dream of a lifetime, a scene from a fantasy, a novel, romance, thriller

of you and me


If all i had to give you were my ears...

I would listen intently to your voice, your dreams, your vision

and i would envelope all that i hear into a melody

If all i had to give you were my arms...

I would embrace you with all that i have, hold you tight, so tight

squeeze you, touch you in places you have never felt

so that you would know that my arms will wrap around this world to hold you

If all i had to give you were my legs...

I would stand for you, stand beside you, stand behind you, stand in front of you

in your time of need

If all i had to give you was my heart...

I would love you like no other, seeking no other, giving no other

the way i give to you

you will wallow in my ocean

take pride in my devotion

and even when you were alone

you will always hear my song

even when i am gone

you will always hear my song

My heartsong...for you!

She's Back

“Daddy, I’m depressed.” It was my friend reaching out to me. I’ve know her for almost a year. Back in January, she called me one day and said, “Zay, you know how I say you are like my Daddy? Well I was wrong, you ARE my Daddy.” I was speechless as she continued, “And when I get married, I want you to give me away.”
All I could say was “wow!” My friend has been through a lot. Is still going through a lot, and she really needs a Dad. So when she said she was depressed I ask, “What’s wrong hon?”
After a heavy sigh, “I’m tired all the time, my apartment is dirty, junk all over the place, sink full of dishes, dirty clothes all over the place, the clean clothes I washed two weeks ago hasn’t been put away yet, and I’m binge eating.”
I comfort her as only I can, and we make plans to have lunch the next day and a daddy/daughter date next Friday. After we get off the phone, I realize that in describing her symptoms, she could have easily been talking about me. Damn, here we go again...

Depression

I really hate it when you come unannounced
You ain’t got no decency, not even an ounce
I hardly even know you, just your first name
And you in my bed, no shame in your game
Touching me like you own me, bitch please!
If I listen to you, you’ll have me on my knees
Bad enough you coming around my job
Stealing as much of my time as you can rob
Distracting me when I got so much to do
Go away, can’t you see I got no use for you?
Don’t wait for me to come home from work
Can’t you see you driving me berserk?
I don’t want to be with you, OKAY!
You can’t fuck worth a damn anyway
All you know how to do is suck me dry
And while I lay there, tell me lie after lie
I already have a woman of my very own
Damn you bitch just leave me the fuck alone!
Pack you bags, shake a leg and get stepping
Stop smiling like that, that shit isn’t helping
You think it’s funny that my life is on hold?
I have so much to do before I’m too old
But you don’t care about that or about me
You just want to have me selfishly
Stop trying to convince me, it’s no use
I’m sick of you and I’m sick of your abuse
Just get the fuck out my bed and be gone
Find some other poor sucker to lean on
Put your clothes on and get out of my sight
I already told you, we ain’t fucking tonight
Okay, I’ll lie down but don’t get it twisted
In the morning I’ll wish I had resisted
You win tonight but you’re not here to stay
I have hope because tomorrow is another day

Peace and Love,

Ali’s Zay

Text and Photo: Copyright © 2008 Xavier Pierre Jr. All rights reserved.

A Bitter Song

I spit in the wind
I think I'll do it again
One thought tempts me
One thought mocks me
Now I'm just mad!

I try to hide my pain
I sit in pouring rain
Just when I thought I figured you out
You make me insane

Why don't you leave me alone?
Why can't you leave me alone?
I didn't ask for this to happen
Now I want to explode!
Yeah I want to explode...
Please just leave me alone...
I'm begging leave me alone...

I want you outta my head
You crawl beneath me instead
Don't want to let you inside
I'll never let you inside

Pretty. Purrfect. Peace.

I. am. at. peace. in my prettiness.

Peace of mind takes piece of time.

I have arrived in this purrfect place...

Thanx 2 The Creator.

I'll meet U here.

Take a load off in this comfy chair.

Kick off your shoes.

Let me run your bath water while we

Sip spirits & explore depths of each other's psyche.

Look at me. Enjoy the view.

Look into me and enjoy that, too.

I love your heavy voice and the light-hearted words flowing from your intellectual muscle.

You are comfortable with me being pretty. purrfect. flawed. at peace.

I am comfortable with me being pretty. purrfectly flawed. at peace.

You are at ease with U: purrfect at presenting your purpose to purchase your help meet.

I am at ease with U: purrfectly honored at your efforts to acquire such a help meet as Me.

Let us move on from our former selves as we disrobe and pursue anew.

Let us knead and heal each other as we slip into new waters bubbling with anticipation.

Let us wash away the grime of past crimes caused by immature ignorance ingrained by society.

Look at me glowing. refreshed. pretty purrrfectly for U. at peace.

Look at U flowing luvingly with & into purrfect for U me. at peace.


~ C.A. Paige©June2008

***MUST NOTE that I AM TOO EXCITED for The Obama Family - now tha's all the politics I'm going to mention today;-)****

Pride

No better poetry than Barack's speech tonight.

Phyllis Wheatley is smiling...

shooting green butterfly 5-24-08

 

shooting green butterfly

 

shooting green butterfly

 in the wind

i saw her drifts through

the little flower trees

suddenly landing

upon my brown cheekbone

adorably fluttering

her golden green

opening wings at me

the beautiful royalty

the precious princess

and i know

she wanders around the  world

like guardian lovely angels
 spreading the bittersweet, sweet love

all around

~

 ©2008 Kai C.

Break Up to Make Up...Or Not?

I want so badly to hate you
Yet I don't
I want so badly to put my hands around your throat and choke you
But I won't
I hope that this time you are taking is worth every second
Every minute
Every hour
Every day
E-ver-y week
It better be worth it knowing what this is doing to me
I hope this time prunes you to become the mature God fearing man you were meant to be
I hope it gives you the confidence and faith to go after what you want no matter how many times that you hear the word no
Cause coming back around this time won't be easy
Be sure to come with a steady foundation and strong locked backbone
Cause this world here is no simple playground for timid and self conscious fools...

I want so badly to hate you

Yet I don't

I want so badly to put my hands around your throat and choke you

But I won't

I hope that this time you are taking is worth every second

Every minute

Every hour

Every day

Every week

I hope it prunes you to become the mature God fearing man you were meant to be

I hope it give you the confidence and faith to go after what you want no matter the times that you hear the word no

Cause coming back around this time won't be easy

Be sure to come with a steady foundation and strong backbone

Cause the world is no simple playground for timid and self conscious fools