Monday, August 11, 2008

i gave my heart

i gave my heart
i gave my heart
well maybe not in words 
but through my actions i kinda did
gave myself away
cos i got too comfortable around  you
and i am feeling you 
so
i gave my trillion beats away
to you
all the way to you
when i heard you got a girl
and i cried
cos the feelings of obviousness and distances
between us
the feelings of my great situations with you and
even special friendships between us
this type of real feelings for you
has made me dream
has made me want you even more
and i also let my feelings get in the way
making me care for you so much
that i always realize this is
what i get for having a mega mega crush on a guy
and always, always ending up
with a broken heart
but at least i didn't say a word
just the small gestures and  the simple ways i do 
to make you smile
that's all
there are some young ladies out there in the world
who is  like me
who can fit into these shoes 
that were made for stepping across the borders
of having a mega mega crush  on someone
and then act so simple a little too obvious
when young ladies like me who  hangs around 
and flirts way around with debonair young men
like yourself
yet i gave my heart away
far away
cos i feel like i have to
it was my extinct
that i have to show you the real me
only through actions of our bittersweet friendship
and somehow you 
 broke my heart
in a away that the silence soothes my breath
when i found out that you already had a lady
right after 2 days of our dance
though you're not there 
when i heard
and i didn't ask you if you have one
cos i don't wanna cry
i don't wanna be upset
i shouldn't let that bother me
but it did
it did to my heart
so i didn't tell you
that i cried 
cos i like you very much
~
©2008 Kai C.

12 comments:

Kin'shar said...

1ssssstttttt! Now off to read!

Kin'shar said...

Baby, I am in your shoes now. I have felt this pain of wanting someone and learning that they now have a girl......only except he has no girl "now". But what happens when he finds one..how would I handle that.

Well little to say, I dont have a love crush on him but we have become best friend over the months and he asked me how I would feel about him having a girl. I laughed and told him that I couldnt be mad because I am in love with someone else. But mmmkay, I thought about it and I think that it would be a little ironic. I am used to having him to myself and I dont think his girl would approve of our relationship. I guess you can call it a relationship...LOL!

Take care and stay sweet.....stop the crushes ;)

Kai C. said...

at least, i'm not alone in the situation.


well i have a crush on him for a while and i didn't say anything
but he knew how i feel
though he didn't know i cried
we are really good friends
i just got too comfortable with him
that i wanted something more

butterflylikeME said...

this is a great post
i've been through this twice...ugh
its hard on the heart, but things slowly yet surely get better.

Kai C. said...

thank you

Mizrepresent said...

Beautiful, sweet! I can't tell you how many times i have given my heart when they had no idea that it was given.

Lovebabz said...

I am in jumping in the boat! Who among us have not had this experience of crushing on someone and have it go awry!

Good stuff Sister!

Kai C. said...

that's how it is when you had a crush on someone.
thank you!

remorji said...

Nice, I came, I saw, I like.

Demi'urge said...

crushes will seem like nothing when true love comes storming in. beautiful write. and rings so true!

Kai C. said...

thank you both..

Day Dreams of a PYT said...

Very NICE....I know someone who feels this way Ill be sure to show her this awesome poem!