Funny Thing About Love

Inspired by : Every Little Bit Hurts - Alicia Keys and my best buddy Fawn.

Funny thing about love,
it makes your heart sing,
and your lips smile,
makes your body tingle all over.

Funny thing about love,
makes you cry alone at night,
makes your heart bleed,
makes your body hurt all over.

Funny thing about love,
makes you want ,
want till you don't think straight,
or see clearly what is.

Funny thing about love,
how you deny all the bad,
and only see the good.

Funny thing about love,
how it starts,
grows till its bigger than you.

Funny thing about love,
how we all want it,
long for it, & when we have it we take it for granted.

Funny thing about love,
how one uses it to manipulate another,
knowing the other is hopelessly in love
and will submit themselves to anything.

Funny thing about love,
how it starts so genuine,
with both hearts, then one is stronger than the other,
trying to make up for both.

Funny thing about love,
as bad as it gets,
how we still seek it out,but with caution.

Our wounded hearts,
how we take a beating over a lifetime.
how we recover,well ,most of us.
how we build invisible armor around our hearts and souls..
how we desire to be one with another,
only to be heart broken again in the end .

It isn't only the long lasted loves in our lives that matter.
It is those loving moments that we hold dearly,
hold closely..
That keep us warm at night,
when we are all alone.
That makes us get up every morning and face the trials of the next day,
with hopes for better tomorrows.

Some of us find this out not till late in life,
but some of us find this out earlier..

Enjoy...
those moments in your life,
give what you can give,
love who you can love,
live for those wonderful moments,
they will carry you for all your days...

No One Wins : 3 in 1

My mind is empty, my heart is still, no longer do I breath.
My eyes are closed, my brain shut off, no longer do I feel.
My voice is quiet, my soul is closed, no longer does it dwell.
You've taken what you've wanted, nothing is left of me.
You've taken all I've offered, and left me here to bleed.
You've taken everything I loved, and tossed it to the side.
I try to work things through each time, and seem to make it right.
I try to gather up the thoughts, and find the love inside.
I try to capture every breath, and hold it close to me.
You will not see me for the person that I am right now.
You will not know what you have done until the day I'm gone.
You will not know what you have lost, until it is too late.
We'll look behind us and stare into the past.
We'll hold out our hands, and see nothing but the pain.
We'll walk away grasping for the air.
No longer will I wonder, about the love we had.
No longer will I be alone even though you were with me.
No longer will I take the beatings of words that you twist and turn.
I'm done. You have won. I'm beaten, and I concede,
but as I go, I must ask... who is the victor? You or Me?
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Pain Cuts Deep

He said he needed me
I thought that it was love
I was wrong again
When all he did was come

There were no loving kisses
No words of sweet romance
Just timely thrusts of sexes
That was the so called dance

A vessel for his needs
No desire does he give
As I slip away
No longer being his

Just two bodies joining
The love no longer shows
Though inside my heart is bleeding
As he just lets it flow

When the act is over
He tells me he is done
And I'm no longer needed
So I turn and run

I move away and leave him
My heart broken deep inside
My body it is empty
My eyes they start to cry

I tried to not be hurt
I tried to just ignore
The pain that I am feeling
As I close that bedroom door

So I came to write
Words that he won't read
Where I pour the pain
And hope it helps me bleed

My body shakes in sorrow
As my breath locks in my chest
And soon I'll face tomorrow
With a face that shows its best

No one will see the sadness
Or witness it this night
For like the times before
I'll cover it real tight

I just need these words
To cleanse my very soul
And once again I'll feel complete
My words will make me whole.

Gloom and Doom
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Walking Away

She's shaking in frustration.
Her fingers barely touch the keys,
to form the words she needs
to set her spirit free.

Her body was his vessel.
His come the seed he spilled.
And though he knew her pain,
He still refused to heel.

She lies in disbelief and anger,
Unable to go to sleep.
As the tears flow faster
down her rosy cheeks.

Her jaw is tightly clenched .
Her heart is in a vise,
wondering why she thought
he ever would play nice.

Eventually she breathes.
Takes in the sex-filled room
and closes off her body.
In her mind she fumes

One day he'll look and find her,
in the arms of another soul.
One who makes her wither.
One who makes her whole.

Only then will he suffer.
He'll bleed for all its worth.
And she'll walk away,
her life finally rebirth.

ever wonder what if?

BECAUSE

In his eyes,

I am brave.

because

In his arms

I know strength.

In his eyes,

I am smart.

because

In his arms,

I know everything I need to know.

In his eyes,

There are no flaws.

because

In his arms,

Everything is perfect.

In his eyes,

I hung the moon.

because

In his arms,

He has given me the moon and more.

In his eyes,

I am beautiful.

because

In his arms,

I feel so much love.

~Sparkle~

I am Yours for Always.

Till we meet my heart waits,
beating with anticipation.
Your eyes captivate me,
drawing me deep in their dark depths,
showing me glimpses of the sweet soul inside.

One glance and I drown in your love,
swimming to the surface only with great strength and will.
Holding on for all I'm worth,
dreaming of the day I'm yours for always....

BUT STILL...

Of course I knew that sooner or later you’d call.
I was simply hoping that just this once, your need for me
might show up faster than your want for me.

Oh I know, “there I go again, tripping off of things that don’t matter”.

But still,

I can’t seem to help it.
I imagine a world in which the unimaginable is the reality.
A world in which I am needed in your world, not just wanted.
A world where I am necessary, a requirement, the cog without which the machinery that is you can’t function.

Oh I know, “Being wanted is a great thing!”

but still,

the thought of being an integral part of your program,
of playing a role so critical the show can’t work in my absence,
of being the opinion without which your thoughts simply can’t be sorted…
Hypnotizes me and creates this chasm between happiness over being wanted by you
and despair over my lack of necessity in your world.

AND, that keeps us so far apart.

Oh I know all this, but still…


© Sharon J. All Rights Reserved 2008

A Bitter Song

I spit in the wind
I think I'll do it again
One thought tempts me
One thought mocks me
Now I'm just mad!

I try to hide my pain
I sit in pouring rain
Just when I thought I figured you out
You make me insane

Why don't you leave me alone?
Why can't you leave me alone?
I didn't ask for this to happen
Now I want to explode!
Yeah I want to explode...
Please just leave me alone...
I'm begging leave me alone...

I want you outta my head
You crawl beneath me instead
Don't want to let you inside
I'll never let you inside

Poor Thing.

It happens to other people
You say how sad
You say poor thing
But when it's you
It's something else,
It's everything.
It started with something minor,
went from there to something worse
The friends you loved
The thoughts you knew
Just disappeared
Felt so weird
Half blessing
Half cursed
It happens to other people

You say how sad

You say poor thing

Here's to April -> SAAM. This poem is about rape.

A POEM I WILL NEVER TELL

I feel a burning in my chest
You've stolen it
And it seems you will never give it back to me
Through the good,
The bad,
The worst,
You will hold my heart so hard it hurts.

I look into your eyes
Tell you I'm fine
Truth is, I've lied.

I weep
Tears soaking through my sheets

I can't admit
To tell,
It would show I'm really weak.

So here I am
Hands at your feet
Here I am
Admitting defeat

~Sparkle~

A BEDTIME THOUGHT

Asleep I fall with you on mind
Your love guiding
Leading me on
To dreams of sweetness

Asleep I fall with you on mind
My love guiding me to your side
perfecting your dreams

You make me smile
You warm my soul
The little things you do makes me happy.

~Sparkle~

A Moment

Moments fill our lives each day, and moments come and go.
For a moment, just one moment, I loved someone I know.

Two different lives somehow merged, and yet somehow stayed apart.
But, for a moment, just one moment, we somehow made this start.

All other things were put on hold; we became lost within ourselves.
For a moment, just one moment, there was him and nothing else.

All questions and qualms disappeared the moment he held me tight.
For a moment, just one moment, everything was right.

Long days and sleepless nights, they meant nothing for a while.
For a moment, just one moment, we made each other smile.

The world fell away; I immersed myself in the magic of his touch.
It was a moment, just one moment, but that moment held so much.

Affection shared is what we have, an emotion we felt so strong.
For a moment, just one moment, we were just where we belonged.

Passion rose, we reached the stars, and touched the blazing sun.
For a moment, just one moment, we two were joined as one.

Strong arms afterwards that held me tight, rapid heartbeats in my ear.
It was a moment, just one moment, and a moment I’ll hold dear.

The moment left us all too soon as the world came slowly in.
But for that moment, just that moment, all I knew was him.

It was a moment, and the moment passed, forever lost in time.
But for that moment, just that moment, for that moment he was mine.